I AM CRAZY


Tom Ryan’s book featuring 8 Ways to Kick @#! with Mental Illness


My name is Tom Ryan. I am 56-years-old. I have been institutionalized. My treatments with psychologists and psychiatrists began in my late teens. I have taken over 20 medications and countless combinations of those medications for depression, anxiety and bi-polar disorder. Even with countless blood tests, my lithium level has never registered at a “therapeutic level” even with doses over 1000 milligrams per day.

Depending on which expert you choose, the labels you’ll find behind my name read, “Tom Ryan suffers from severe depression and bi-polar disorder … Tom has mental disorders … Mr. Ryan has mental problems and/or issues … Tom Ryan suffers from mental illness … He reaches extreme highs (manic) and experiences extreme lows (depression) … He has all the signs of suffering from SAD (Season Affect Disorder).”

Apparently, I am the face of crazy.

Yet, I believe I am the most normal person in the world!
I do not “suffer” from mental illness… I excel “with” mental illness.

Like many who are seeking a solution, I read books on mental illness by honest, insightful authors. I looked at mental illness websites I visited support groups. I watched videos… All I found were articles and statistics along with the ever present suggestion, Call 911!

I needed help all I could find were stories, articles and statistics! I thought, “Come on, is this the best we can do?” I was NOT looking for a cure. Rather, I wanted to harness the power of mental illness and use it to my advantage. I needed a PLAN, a SOLUTION, so I created one!

Learn the “8 Ways” Tom created to KICK ASS with mental illness!

Fascinating, insightful, authentic insights of the realities of mental illness that NO ONE wants to talk about!
Here’s a peek inside on a few of the chapters you’ll experience in “I AM CRAZY!”

The Beauty of Suicide

“For Many, There is Beauty in Suicide.”

Perception & Reality vs Stigma

“I believe the energy used to “Fight the Stigma!” of mental illness is a complete waste of time.”

Am I Mentally Ill?

“I cry every day. Yet, I feel incredible joy, too! Isn’t it a gift to be able to experience a deep sadness and happiness all in one day, every day? I say, ‘Yes it is!’”

The Reality of Support

“I thought nearly all breast cancer patients and sexual assault victims were active with formal support groups. I was wrong.”

What Does Mental Illness Look Like?

“What do we do when we see mental illness? In most cases nothing.”

Cancer vs. Mental Illness

“If you have cancer, you go to the hospital. If you have a mental illness, you go to the ‘loony bin,’ ‘insane asylum,’ ‘mental institution,’ or the ‘nuthouse.”’

Talent is Fragile

”We do not want to commit suicide. We just want the pain to stop.”

The “Illusion”

”Maybe I just love silence. Nothing bad can happen in silence.”

The Seduction of Isolation

“Isolation calms. Isolation kills.”

What Really Helps?

“Do I recommend seeking help from a medical professional and making an informed choice on mental health medications? Absolutely, 100%, yes I do.
But in my case, medication caused HORRIBLE emotional damage. Be careful! Pay very close attention and remember, there are no guarantees.”

Support Communities

“Most people have no clue how to access and utilize their support community. Let’s make sure you’re not one of them.”

The Limitation of Friendships

“Most of us will change our lifestyle to help a friend for a limited period of time. Then our lives take precedent. We need to get back to our routine.”

A Man’s View

“Once the children arrive, men become a piece of furniture or a plant that needs to be watered once in a while.”

What If I Cannot Do It?!

“If you are someone who simply will not do it and believe you cannot do it, you’re probably going to have to tolerate your pain until you die … Mental illness is a powerful adversary. But together, we CAN make it. We CAN live a brilliant life. Alone we are likely to fail, but together we CAN succeed.”

Tom “8 Ways”

“Let’s face it, communication is risky. Some would say telling someone you are mentally ill is a weakness. I contend telling someone you are mentally ill is a strength. It shows courage and confidence; it gives you power and control.”

You and Me Together, Baby!

“I cannot heal you, but I can help you!”

Q&A

Learn the answers to these questions and more!
What is the best way to discuss my spouse’s mental illness with our children?
Does your depression and bi-polar disorder change (better or worse) at different times of the year?
Have you had periods where you stopped and restarted your medications?
“Crazy” is often associated as a negative label to describe mental illness. Why do you refer to it and use it so often?
What is the best way to support my mentally ill spouse?